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Finding a Purpose for Life
I was raised experimenting with Catholicism and also Christianity. All my life I had been searching for an understanding, a truth, and a purpose for life. I knew I needed God in my life. I wanted to know the whole truth, to get to really know Him, and be among people that really do care. It all came about after a desperate plea. I felt like something was missing in my life. I was always trying to fill this gap inside me in the wrong places, in shopping, or in amusements. It was a temporary fulfillment, but in the end I felt empty again. I tried searching for a church to fulfill this need inside of me. I attended many different Christian denominations. I also went to Catholic churches. Going only brought on an even bigger gap between the Lord and I. Trying to change myself was not working, just making things even more depressing because without God there is no hope. I stopped going to church all together, and I went into the world with Satan and his evil ways.
I had a roommate who was Catholic, and she was always going to see a psychic. She tried to get me to go, and I was actually considering it. A strong feeling inside me told me not to go, but I did anyway. I just had one request, to go to visit the wishing well. I just had a feeling to go there, and when we finally did, it was at night. I got my coin ready to make a wish; I closed my eyes real tight, and the next thing you know I was praying to God with tears in my eyes. I asked God to bring me to the place that He wanted me to be. Little did I know that place was the local church. I asked Him to help me find my way, and to help me know Him as my Father. I said, “God, if you are out there I’m not asking for anything else.” Well, the Lord answered that prayer, and arranged for me to be where I am today, in the local churches. It is truly a blessing being in God’s presence, and being among the believers. I was baptized January 10, 1999. I have learned and experienced so much in seven months time.
My blurry, cloudy, confusing vision has become clear for once in my life. What a joy it is to have a wonderful vision, to enjoy Christ and the church, to learn the Lord’s heart’s desire, to have a morning time with the Lord, to have fellowship, and meet with believers. It is heaven on Earth. The ministry of Watchman Nee and Witness Lee has brought me to a place that I thought I could never be. To realize God has a purpose for me to be here, and that purpose is just for me to be filled with His life so that I can express Him. I still have yet to be transformed fully, but God is working in me (Rom. 12:2). Prayer is powerful, and being with believers is vital. It is a truly awesome thing that I can depend on God and believers I know, to protect me from Satan and his evil ways. When I’m weak I call any of the believers I know to pray with, to sing with, or to pray over the Word of God with, and I’m infused and strengthened with the Holy Spirit. The only way to do this is to get to know God. How did I get to know God? I would say the most practical way was through the ministry of Watchman Nee and Witness Lee, meeting with the local church and being surrounded by loving people that love the Lord. This ministry makes it all so clear to me. Even through the roughest of times I may go through in life, I can still enjoy Christ and praise Him for what He is doing, and what He has already accomplished. I feel truly blessed that God has brought me to this ministry of Watchman Nee and Witness Lee, two brothers that I feel truly knew God and expressed God.
Anonymous
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